bpd4bpd:

beckylouisethompson:

Needing attention
Outbursts of emotion (especially anger)
Not getting out of bed
Social withdrawal
Self-destructive behaviours
Being ‘clingy’
Forgetting things
Getting upset about everything
Bad self-care
Promiscuity
‘Weird’ or ‘unusual’ triggers
Needing validation

Needing attention - with out constant stimulation from our relationships, we forget we even mean anything to anyone.

Outbursts of emotion (especially anger) - there are 5 intensity levels. at levels 4-5, we become the emotion. it sucks. (source: dialectical behavioral therapy)

Not getting out of bed - with bpd, depression is a reoccurring mood.

Social withdrawal - we are champs at perfecting facades. don’t always have the energy for it though.

Self-destructive behaviours - sometimes needed to escape those 4-5 intensity emotions. 

Being ‘clingy’ - fear of abandonment. love addicted. not knowing how else to care about people.

Forgetting things - emotional impermanence. we lose perspective of things we did if its associated with something painful (aka all things, all things are painful). 

Getting upset about everything - impossible to see the good in anything unless someone sucked the cognitive dissonance right out of our heads. in other words, splitting–it’s a thing. 

Bad self-care- see: depression is a revolving and reoccurring mood.

Promiscuity  - see: needing attention because we don’t feel like “real” people. 

‘Weird’ or ‘unusual’ triggers - sorry if you hate the word ‘trigger’, but that’s exactly what this is. emotional ptsd. how else would you explain, “oh fuck, that song reminds me of when _____. welp. time to dissociate. haha i’m not here anymore. haha, i don’t feel anything.”???

Needing validation - we want attention to feel like people. we need validation to feel like good people. 

WISH I FIGURED THIS SHIT OUT A DECADE AGO. 

you’re welcome.